I'm Being A Sap Again, Excuse Me

"I want to be a part of the National Geographic Society when I finish school. But with my grades... Nevermind. What do you want to be when you graduate?"

I was just flipping through my school planner for 2010, and saw a sketch of this guy that was in the Photography Club (not the one above).

I remember him saying that he failed lots of subjects- all of them or something; and he seemed to be really sad about it. He also said;

"Bet it's okay for you, since you're smart and all. Must be nice."

But dude, I just told you I failed Add Maths for mid year exams. Lol. Something seemed to click in my head at that moment, and I hesitated before answering. It was something of an epiphany, I guess. I don't know. I couldn't understand even now. So I answered him;

"You're kidding me. I'm the laziest my the class!"

He hummed and looked at the passing cars, seeming to be deep in thought.

To make it more manga-esque; the wind was blowing really hard that day. Lol.

I told an acquaintance about it. She got angry.

"That jerk!" She said.

"Doesn't he understand? How hard people work to get good grades, to do better in life! To realise their dreams!"

I don't understand what she's angry at.

The only thing is that I can't forget what he said.

"Must be nice..."

No, Dear. I'm Still Angry.

Someone I whipped up totally randomly. Considering on naming him Corin Chase or something.

I actually wrestled my brother for an optical mouse. Ffffff.

He got it back in the end, anyway. Only managed the head.

Drawing faces heading the same direction is an awesome way to tell if you've made any progress in drawing! /shot

Yeah, that's totally bullshit.

Also; ending of Togainu no Chi had me going like;

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

AKIRA IS DOING WHAT I DON'T EVEN

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

Of course, the title is referring to the Togainu no Chi ending.

Having Fun

Click to enlarge.

Yes. I ship them. Even if they're my own OC's. jakjkszhgfnlk I don't even.

Buuuuuuh.

I feel like drawing girls now.

School Ends; But The Fight's Not Over

Today, the juniors had their yearly feast.

And that alone, left me feeling kind of nostalgic, since it struck me hard; I won't be coming back to school next year. I'll take the final exams and then wait a few months for the results, get a car licence, apply for college or university or matriculation programmes or overseas programmes if I'm lucky enough. Ah well- I can go back to school to take STPM, but that is not an option. I don't want to, and it seems that the program is as hard as any other program. Which is not a good thing.

But that's another story. The thing is, as I was walking down the hallways of the second years' building and saw and heard them shouting, running, eating and generally having fun, I just thought that I would like to be middle school student again for a day, maybe. Seeing their faces - looks of utter joy - made me wish I wasn't growing up so fast.

I'm turning 17 on the 27th of November, and I'll be registering for driving lessons. Dammit, some of my friends are already driving to school! asdlkqhukjsrfd Can you tell I'm jealous beyond heck?

I can still remember the first time I stepped through the gates of that school. A mere 13 year old who had just finished elementary school. I was amazed, overwhelmed, frightened and most of all, excited. As I skimmed through the booklet given to new students, I felt nervous- wondering if I would be able to handle studying there, since the school was ranked in the top ten school of the district- It was hard to get in.

And when tomorrow ends, I'll have completed my 11 years of compulsory education.

Over the years I've been in that school, many things have happened- some drama here and there, some idiotic things...

There won't be ceremonies or anything grand like that, we just go to school like normal, sit around, maybe see some teachers and say our goodbyes and go home when the bell rings.

This way, we don't feel as sad. 

Though seniors are usually given a piece of paper with words of encouragement and the likes from the teachers. Now that made a lot of people tear up, and I will admit that I cried when reading it.

It's not good to be too emotional, right?

I'm the melancholic type.

I'll miss being a high school student.

They say your personality is shaped at school.

I wonder if that's true.

Work Work Work

I am currently amusing myself with how much work I can get done in a day while sick. Apparently, not much. Up there, I have Italia Romano illustrating a typical day; work.

Ah well, I keep getting sick this week.  I would like to blame the weather, please.

With a few months to go till the big exam starts, I'm quite behind on my studies. Granted- I got an average of 70 percent - Grade A by national standards for the mock exam, but I still think I need to work harder, haha. The doctor said I keep getting sick cause I was in constant nervous-state. Well then.

I also have seemed to gain a few kilos. ;_; /tends to eat when nervous

I- I need to stop eating. And stop panicking. Haha. Hahaha. Ha.

I want to be able to wear short shorts like that. ;A; (well, not outside, obviously. Still.)

That is Craig, by the way. She's trying to look cute.

Allison: Give it up, Craig, you still look like a boy.

Craig: You could have at least pretended that I looked cute. -huffs-

Allison: I could have. Yes. -looks uninterested-

Craig: ...Bastard.

While we're on the topic of clothes- It was the Seniors' Prom and Graduation Night last Tuesday.

Everyone wore such beautiful clothing~

But there was this one guy that was out of place.

He actually wore a cowboy outfit.

The theme was 'Spring'.

More randomness.

Well, need to sleep now.

Hetalian Magnet

GerIta! Lol. Do they even look like Germany and Italy? orz

Of course, on lined paper, since I drew this during free period at school. I was supposed to be writing that 350-word essay I was supposed to hand up today. I ended up sketching lots. And because I'm starting to feel like this blog of mine stopped being a sketchblog, haha.

And Spamano~ Of course, more sketchy than the GerIta one, but not drawn on lined paper. I'm inconsistent like that. =3=

Also, this is pretty late; but the title's referring to one Vocaloid duet song by Megurine Luka and Hatsune Miku. >3< Just because, I'm putting a male-laden cover instead.

Disclaimer: The video is not mine, and that youtube account is not mine.

Though I really wish I do.

Sick, Being Stalked... The Usual

The day after I wrote the last blog, I got the flu. Then it evolved to be a cold.

Now I can barely walk and my movements are limited. Walking down the corridor at school feels like hiking up a steep mountain. And I had physics exam earlier this morning. Joy. I really don't know if I wrote the right things in the right places. <_<;

You know it's bad when you feel so sick you cry tears of pain, right?

Stupid school with stupid 'No re-taking exams even if you're sick' policy.

I'm grateful I can actually type. But this sense of weakness is hurting my pride as a martial artist. And well- apparently I still can hit pretty good when I'm sick. According to my friends, that is.

Also- I realised that one of my blouses are missing. A bra too.

I seem to have gained a stalker. A very creepy stalker that steals my clothes. What the hell.

Nightmare Fuel aka NGE

So, barely a month after finally getting over my two-year long depression over things that have been happening in my life, I finally convinced myself to watch Neon Genesis Evangelion. Ya know, the one show that's been out for like- 14 years ago? Yeah, I'm late into fandoms. Really late.

Two words;

FREAKIN' AWESOMEEEEE!!!

At least the movies are. The anime actually mentally scarred me somewhat- haha. ;_; Now I really appreciate my  family. Seeing the cute little Ikari Shinji so broken like that makes me want to cry. I pity him. He's just 14- the same age as my brother and wow- what a load of responsibility. He's such an extreme doormat too. Poor kid. I wish I could just give him a hug. Or get him a therapist. (Actually, therapist don't seem to work on me, so I doubt it would work on him...)

Or maybe a different father would suffice. His suck.

Also, I'm finally understanding the whole "(insert action) WHILE I PLAY UNFITTING MUSIC" meme.

Talk about unfitting music. <_<; Really, GAINAX? A children's song while EVA Unit 01 eat an Angel that looks somewhat human? That's downright disgusting, man. Though the unfitting music in episode 9 is just hilarious. Interpretive dance. I was like what the hell is this the right show pfft-

Also; Nagisa Kaworu. This guy is probably my favourite character, for some odd reason. Well- maybe because he's a pretty white haired bishounen with Ho Yay tendencies- THE POINT IS, he's cute. ;-; He doesn't get enough screen time. One episode isn't freakin; enough.

One more reason to love the Rebuild movies. <333

I do believe I should get back to studying and living like a normal person now. Being a hikkimori isn't all that wonderful- what with having people getting mad cause I haven't replied their texts and calls. Hahahaha.

Though it's kind of hard to go back to real life- seeing as in the movie, Kaworu said;

"Now then, the promised time has come, Ikari Shinji-kun. This time I will, at least, make you happy."

Ignoring the Ho Yay-ish implications in that line, he said this time? What, has the world reset itself after the events of the anime or something? I thought Hideki Anno said it's a retelling of events... Nice Mind Screw there, Anno-san.

I have sketches, but apparently my scanner's driver doesn't work on this laptop. Hnn... Need to hack into the family computer somehow...

Congratulations!

~~HAPPY EID~~

Well, it was days ago, but still. Malaysians celebrate it for a whole month.

<3

Here, have a mouse painting.

Allison's Portrait by ~rui-kari on deviantART

and the uncoloured version.

See ya all later, now.

Things I Suck At With Digital Art

That pretty much sums it up.

And more- but I'm brain-dead right now.

I wanna sleep....

Not Taking Myself Seriously

My brother found Portable!SAI.

And while it might be a good thing, I'm not that happy. orz Main reason = I can't remember all the brushes and functions. And how do you put text in an image again...?

Layers prove themselves to be useful.

Ah, it's the National Independence Day tomorrow. ;3; I wanted to draw something to celebrate, but of course I can't. hahahaha.

Cats, Cats, Cats, and Oc's

I was a bit depressed. So I doodled some.

Cats. And some of my OC's holding them. '3'

Now I wanna go huggle mine.

Scanner's Not Working

I have a mountain of homework, my scanner's not working, and I can't find an optical mouse anywhere.

Oh, what a great day.

I wonder, do cats lick people?

Because my cat, Tomi is licking my toe right now.

I wonder if he likes me or if he likes how my nails taste like.

I still love him, though.

Might not sleep today, hahah.

Pull His Jacket Off

http://www.wrangler-europe.com/en/bluebell#/slide2

I swear, this is so distracting.

Not as distracting as the last 'Pull his clothes off' movie, but still.

They're quite good looking too.

Ahhhhhh... Exams are over. Finally they're over.

Gonna go draw now.

I bet I'll have homework tomorrow. Hahaha.

I'm Going To National Service

Seriously, I'm not kidding. Hahahaha. Even when my co-curricular marks are enough to score me an A... What the hell, National Service Program? Out of the 180+ seniors in my school, I just have to be one of the 47 shortlisted people. I don't think I need that 20% bonus.

Ah well. I guess I won't be going online for 3 months when that happens.

Also, I heard they're giving you free clothes!

Excuse me, I like free stuff.

Here are some sketches, click to enlarge!

Something I doodled a few minutes before taking my Chemistry exams. I've always loved those pointy hats magicians and wizards wear.

And cloaks. Flowing robes too. They're so fun.

As for this, I've decided to colour her. Nadia has orange hair. I don't know why I did that. I hate orange. My mouse (optical mouse) seems to love the colour, though.

Four more papers left, and I'll be free for a few weeks. Then it's SPM Exam Trials - Take Two.

Gotta go study now... orz Additional Mathematics is tomorrow.

In A Slump

I don't know why, I'm just... so not in the mood for anything.

I can't even draw anything.

Or study.

Or even think about anything important.

Man, this feeling is horrible. I want it to go away.

I can't even finish colouring this. Look at the sucky colouring job. Augh.

Sorry I haven't been replying.

I can't- in this mood.

Even playing games won't make me feel better. /sigh

I Have An Exam On Saturday.

I mean seriously.

Exam.

On a Saturday.

wtf.

I thought only universities do that.

Argh.
I need to cancel my saturday plans because of that.

Anyway, I took an exam for English today. I finished 45 minutes earlier than I was supposed to, lol. So I doodled some things on a piece of paper.

Click on the pictures to enlarge.

It's Cecil and Cecilia. Walking side by side. Please ignore every logic.

This, on the other hand is a completely random girl I sketched. She's supposed to be wearing something that looks like flower petals, but I suppose I failed. lol

This is Nadia, an OC I'm developing for Cafe Sixth rp. I'll probably use the bottom left picture as the main picture in the application. She's supposed to be flat-chested. I'll have to work on that.

Also, when I wanted to shower earlier this evening, I heard a soft beeping sound, like a sound a camera would make, outside the window. I shut the windows asap and ran down the stairs. I... am now scared to take a shower in my own bathroom. orz What if it's a stalker? Or maybe I'm being paranoid.

;A;

Cecilia

I have grown fond of her design.

I like drawing girls; more variety in clothes. They're also very fun to draw; I mean- the curves~

My brother said; "Sis, you suck at colouring."

orz

Exam tomorrow.

Back To TegakiE

I have forgotten how hard it is to draw something on TegakiE, hahahahaha~

And with only 2 days to go to Trial Exams. /procrastinator

It was fun, though. I just kinda wished that I had my old mouse. This new one feels too heavy; thus lines are squiggly-er than ever~

If you can make out what they're doing; I salute you.

In case you're wondering; that's Allison on the left and Daniel on the right. <3

National Physics Quiz & Semi-Realism

We'll start off with (an inked) Allison smiling at you.

He thinks you're pretty.

lol okay, just kidding.

At school today, a bunch of the seniors (Form 5 students and Upper 6 students) sat for a physics quiz. A national physics quiz. It was so hard. I got stuck on number one. And I gave up halfway through and just blackened (b) for everything I don't know.

If it was an exam, I'm sure I'd have failed.

After the 60th question, I began doodling. Here's one of the things I doodled;

Like, isn't he totally fab?? /lol fail valleygirl talk/

My friends' reactions; "Stop drawing gay stuff!"

What? It's not my fault- I need to distract myself from all the science. And the fact that I had borrowed my crush's calculator and was using it for the quiz, ahahahaha. >A>;

And apparently my physics teacher wasn't serious about drawing her. That or she totally forgot about it. Anyway, I suppose I could post it here...

She's doesn't really look like this, haha. I only had a 50x50 image for reference, so I can't do much about it. I still spent almost two hours on this. Thinking back, I should have given it to her anyway...

Midnight Sketching

It's an England. Reading something, looking generally horrified/exasperated.

There's a reason for this, but I can't recall. orz

Might be something like a comic strip.

Long Time No Mouse Art

It's been a long time since I allowed myself to actually open up Open Canvas 1.1 and draw something without scanning it first. I miss it, somehow...

And well, since I don't have that much homework to do, I decided to draw something.

It's actually just a doodle.

lmao, I wanted to draw Yoshiya Kiryuu but it turned out to be too manly. That is surprising. Also, messy colouring style; is it good? If not, how do you get rid of it? I'm kinda sick and tired of hearing my friends say that my style is too messy. orz I kinda like it, but.

Here you go, a WIP. It's supposed to be Gadriann's OC, Sky/Mad Hatter/Cathy. (Oh man, I don't know what to call her anymore)

But she's too girly. And I forgot the eyepatch. At least it's not so desudesu pretty anymore. Hnnn.

On the other hand, my physics teacher caught me doodling in class.

Now she wants me to draw her as a punishment and it's due tomorrow.

Wish me luck. SPM Trial Exam is in 4 days.

I should be studying now.

Exams are oveeeeeeeerrrrrrr

First thing I did; take out the mouse and DRAW.

Now I need to sleep, orz.

Using Photoshop CS2

I wanted to try using Photoshop CS2. It's not easy, orz. I love the brushes, but I hate the way my lines turn out.

Click on the image to enlarge!


Do you know the time when you see people post their WIPs and sketches and then never seem to post the finished picture?


Well, this is one of those times.

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I really should be looking for my certificates.
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Colouring Is Torture

Last week, I had school on a Saturday. It was some sort of carnival, I had to literally run around the whole school. I didn't even win anything. Curses. Anyway, on Monday morning, our Principal announced some very displeasing news.

1. There's school this Saturday.

2. Parent-Teacher meeting on Friday

3. Reshuffling of classes to be done in a few days.

aksdjsdk.gxndsjld;hsgovk;skan

You can imagine my displeasure. But then, yesterday, I felt feverish...

That girl is not me. I'm not a boy either.

...but turns out I was just having a simple heatstroke. /sigh

Yeah, I didn't get to go to stay at home for a day like I would have liked.

Gah! My eyes hurt and my head is pounding like crazy, I can barely think!

Oh yeah, my brother bought a plushie!

His naming skills need work, he said he named him 'ball' because the plushie is spherical. Lovely.

He didn't get it. Ah. So pure.

What am I doing trying to corrupt my brother!?!

Here's something more serious;

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I want to be better at colouring.

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So... I'm here.

My first post.

I have no idea why I'm here, lol.

OTL

I just thought it would be a great way to post journals.

Well, then.

Hello, nice to meet you~

(still need to figure out this place)